Like many people, ESPECIALLY those with ADHD, I go through obsessions with random things. These obsessions are typically mild (I do in fact still function), and can last anything from hours to months. Some are recurrent. Sometimes I get bored of it mid-obsession and drop it. Usually I learn a lot, actually; sometimes it’s completely useless and sometimes it’s even healing in some sense. Sometimes I can use what I’ve learned in the future. At any given time I have at least one ‘running’ obsession. Although… I think at the moment I’m done with the last one and have no new one.
I do find it a bit embarrassing that I become pre-occupied with random things, but most things aren’t really embarrassing. Off the top of my head I’ve had: Running, working as a doctor in England (Yes, I am allowed to bring my pet rats into England), random topics covered in med school, nail art/nail polish, arts and crafts, the rats, female emancipation and the Bible, and of course just about any affliction I’ve suffered from. To name a few, and to point out how random they are.
To illustrate: My latest obsession is with bras. As with everythinhg else, it’s triggered by something: my 32D bras were chafing me and I needed new bras… Look, 50% of the population need bras, and if there’s some challenge to what you need it may result in ADHD obsession. This was a few months ago; and I found an old bikini in a 30D. So I decided to look for bras in a smaller band, because the 32D’s were chafing, riding up or slipping down.
And there my obsessive, sometimes hyperfocused journey through bra-fitting land begun. I discovered bra-blogs, online webshops and www.bratabase.com. A variety of sizes have passed through… a variety of brands too. Some 30D, some 30E, some 28F, some 28FF…. As if to make it even more complicated, it seems like some of the tissue on my ribs decided to move to my boobs instead, and the band has to be smaller and the cup larger. I am actually proud of my own patience in this: I tried, tested and waited for bras from the listings to come my way rather than going for the full price at random webshops. No, they don’t really sell them in stores here. And yes, I insist on wearing a 28F, if I’m going to go through the hassle anyway, because the 2 30E’s I have have already stretched beyond support level band-wise. And I put up with actually not having enough bras to wear for a month (The 32D’s don’t hold my breasts anymore due to them beign bigger).
I was thrilled to discover a bra I bought in England years ago does actually fit like a dream now, it’s labelled 32DD but it’s the same size as the 28F’s.
And after a lot of obsessive reading, checking measurements of bras, actually THINKING before buying or ordering and a few non-fitting bras, stretched out bras and one bikini that didn’t last very long I’m actully quite excited to be wearing well fitting, comfortable bras. This has massively improved my body image, I always hated my boobs because they won’t look right. I hate the hassle I have to go through, and will continue to have to go through next time I need bras (because I won’t ever fit in 32-36A-D). But the result is that I’ve learned that my breasts can look good in clothes AND in bikinis. My clothes fit so much better without the illusion of saggy low-sitting breasts thanks to padded cups that were simply slipping off… And minor result: now all I have to do is be early in ordering bras, and go through bratabase to get info on them before ordering. So actually, this will save me time in the future, because before this obsession I was trying on bra after bra after bra, always going home with the same ill-fitting strapless which I could never use as such because the band was simply far too big.
Other obsessions sometimes end in a dead end, but I’ve learned from that. I’ve wasted too much money on nail art supplies for example. So now I do the research first.