Med me up, med me down

14 Aug

Sometimes I hate my meds, sometimes I don’t.

I hate how the pharmacist was rude about it, and how no matter what I said they still insisted the dose is too high. Based on guidelines for 12 year olds. Pointing out that I’m an adult didn’t help.

But I picked up a months supply after a discussion with the pharmacy assistant who read the children’s guidelines, she insisted on phoning the doctor about it. Because suddenly it’s a problem now that I was rendered stable enough to be sent to primary care.

And then two days later I felt as if my concerta is just…. Too much. Zoink.

Now I tried a lower dose today. And I felt better, but I’m not sure if it’s enough….

And wouldn’t it be cool to just function without all that hassle?


Posted by on August 14, 2014 in ADHD, adult ADHD


6 responses to “Med me up, med me down

  1. OutOfPLace

    August 15, 2014 at 6:50 am

    It’s frustrating to be so reliant on a pharmacist/doctor to feel normal. After being on those meds for over a decade, I start to lose my sense of which one is me: the balanced person when I’m on meds, or the creative unbalanced person when I’m not on meds.
    But I know I accomplish more when I’m on meds, and I’m a better person for other people to be around.
    Are you healthier and happier with the meds?

    • busydarling

      August 15, 2014 at 7:43 am

      Thanks for the reply! I do function better on them, and I am mentally healthier I suppose, but not happier per say.
      Normal would be handy sometimes, but I wouldn’t want to be normal always. Boring.
      I feel slow on a higher dose, and that doesn’t feel like me.

  2. OutOfPLace

    August 15, 2014 at 8:52 am

    Like a handy ‘normal’ superpower, so that you could be awesome most of the time but break out the normal side of you when you need it? :p
    I think I understand what you mean… Concerta tends to make me more focused but more ‘flat’ if that makes any sense.

    • busydarling

      August 15, 2014 at 8:53 am

      Yup. I am currently a mono focused zombie.

      • OutOfPLace

        August 15, 2014 at 9:15 am

        That really sucks – I hope at least your classes are going better than they were a while back?

      • busydarling

        August 16, 2014 at 3:49 pm

        Will find out soon. Had vacation!


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