Today I gave a presentation about ADHD for my group of GP registrars. Just this morning I joked that instead of giving a presentation I should have filmed myself trying to make the presentation and just show that. By this time I am permanently off my meds and I think the max focus time for this presentation was 5 minutes.
Still impressive that I managed to make something coherent out of it. Suppose it’s one of the things I learned it 29 years of ADHD: the skill to make a rough draft for a project in less than 10 minutes.
So these are a bunch of doctors.
I was just running through some basic stuff.
And two of them didn’t really believe in helping these kids by ‘labelling’ them. After all, if pedagogic measures can help some?
I tried to explain that if pedagogical measures solve the problem there is no ADHD. That these kids need more guidance. That you help them to understand themselves and to deal with their relative impairments. Yes but doesn’t everyone have their issues? We all have to learn to deal with our issues. Yes, but you all don’t end up screwing up your life because of it. Aren’t they just lazy? No.
Honestly, from one of them it made sense. She was in my mentor group and I feel like I get it now.
She doesn’t want to get it.
Makes sense why my trying to explain my ADHD issues in mentor group didn’t help much. She wanted to hear that I use it as an excuse. She didn’t care that I only offered as an explanation while I struggled on to make things right.
There wasn’t time for much of a discussion.
I’m not really sure if I really was going to put in the effort. If people don’t want to hear they don’t want to hear.
TDH reminded me that it didn’t matter because I know the truth.
Because to be honest, it’s hard not to take it personally despite the fact that I didn’t mention my own ADHD to the general group.
Then I was thinking.
Perhaps I’d rather have ADHD than a mind that works like that.