You know that thing called pregnancy brain? You know that thing called ADHD?
In general, my state is the love child of the two of them. I feel hazy most of the time. I lose time, not knowing where it went and what I did with it. I forget things. I have trouble getting anything significant done. I am distracted.
And my hyperactivity is nowhere to be found. I feel hazy and a bit lethargic. I’m more tired than usual, I suppose that’s part of the why.
Class is a nightmare. I spend the day just trying to not fall asleep or fall off my chair. I can’t focus one bit. Their way of educating me is still not a way in which I can learn… and I leave with muscle aches and a horrible mood.
I mean, I don’t want to complain too much and generally my mood is good, but there’s just this one part that is frustrating.
Next time I’m going to make sure to enter pregnancy with a better level of physical fitness.
Next time I’m going to have more of a plan set up before hand. Hah. Hah. Hah.
Next time I probably won’t be working irregular shifts though, that will help a lot.
Irregular shifts don’t help me at all, despite not doing nights. Having to plan every single day doesn’t work for me. I need some sort of structure in my week, so I can spend my scarce mental focus doing more important things than figuring out how and when I’m going to get my exercise in this week, for example, because most of my options are screwed over because of work.